Saturday, October 23, 2010
Time files..its already friday today. I still remember how much I looked forward to friday last week. If only I could make time stand still or return to the past, I would very much like to be the shu xian 2 months ago...
Anw this week's leave was not too bad. I had intermittent amounts of fun (which I can't deny) but also sporadic moments of misery and boredom. Managed to catch up with a friend whom I thought I had lost touch with and ex-colleagues. Something valueable that I guessed I have gained this week. :) Managed to finish the tw drama series fated to love you these days when I'm home. Cried alot while watching the drama as usual haha. Maybe I should to switch to what someone suggested, the comedies instead.
Got to spend some time to think of my next step before I'm being asked. Now the question is, icu anot? I have no confidence in myself. I have always chose to stay in my comfort zone in the past be it towards environment or people. I hate to make decisions because I know I'm not capable of making wise choices or maybe I'm afraid of regretting. Some things just can't go back to what it used to be even if you regret.
Was reading the book "embracing hope" yesterday which accumulates the chronicles of blood stem cell transplants in Singapore as recommended by the brother. As I was halfway through the book, I felt ashamed of myself. There are so many people trying their best to stay alive and live their lives to the fullest despite the harsh reality they have to face when they are diagnosed with leukaemia. Here I am whining about my life when I am actually much more fortunate than them. The stories written by the patients themsleves were truly inspiring. They made me respect the cancer patients even more than before. People, remember to cherish those that you love before you regret and never let youself indulge in self-pity.
